I was raped. I shut down.

I guess I should start at the beginning.... I go to a country bar regularly with friends, we go to hang out and relax, I never drink and I never go if I feel the urge. There's a guy that works there as security, he's a fair bit older but I always found him really attractive. We talk every time I go in, he gave me a hug whenever I saw him and so I gave him my number... He texted me and we chatted via text and phone from Saturday morning onward, we made plans for Tuesday to hang out, as friends, I was interested in a potential future. He started touching me and wouldn't stop, I told him no and to stop, pushed him away... He said we wouldn't have sex and kept trying to finger me (and succeeding) I kept squirming away and telling him to stop, before I knew it he was fucking me.... I told him to stop and he wouldn't. I shut down and gave up. I should have fought. That was Tuesday, it's now the following Saturday night and I'm bawling my eyes out and falling apart... I don't know how I'm supposed to get through this.