I truly have the best girlfriend imaginable...

My girlfriend Jessyka and I haven't been together long..yet she is the most important person in my life. Not only is she extremely trusting of me (which I love, respect & reciprocate), she came into my life & before long the battle with depression because of my miscarriage begun. Jessyka has been so amazing with me through it all, she has supported me every step of the way and has given me a reason to smile & get out of bed on the days that I didn't think it would be possible.. She is the reason I have kept pulling through, when I wanted to give up she was my reason for staying strong. 
 
Jessyka is a bit of a party girl, she likes to drink & have a good time, and I don't blame her, she's 20 and has a 2 year old (doesn't party near her kid, only when ev is with her dad or jess' mom/grandma), yet when I told her before all this miscarriage business began that I have a history of alcohol abuse she was so supportive of me and told me she would never push me to drink, said we can stay sober together or she'll only have a little to drink & I can stay sober if I prefer.. But now that everything has happened, she knows I'm stone cold sober as long as I'm having issues.. And she decided completely on her own to sober up as well... My party girl is putting the alcohol away and is joining me in being sober... I told her she didn't have to for me, but she wants to.. She's so amazing... She said she'll drink on special occasions but never when she's with me, she's too amazing <3 
 
I told her I want to go stone cold sober for a minimum of 2 months, and I think with her support I could keep it up longer... I want to spend my life sober.. Maybe a glass of wine/champagne here or there at special occasions in the future...but I really think I can go at least 4 months stone cold sober with her help <3 
 
Not only has my girl helped me through my depression of a miscarriage she wasn't involved in...she's helping me keep sober & sobering up herself.. And, she helped me plan my tattoo, scheduled appointments with her friend, and is paying for a chunk of my tattoo.. He's charging me $120 for a full colour tattoo about the size of a dvd, I'm paying $80 & she's paying the difference.. As well, she's going to do another one of my tattoos HERSELF <3
 
I really do have the most amazing girlfriend imaginable, and I will never take her for granted, I love her so much, she truly is my future wife...I can't wait to walk the aisle at our wedding <3 
 
I've incorporated her (love & support) into my tattoo for Briar... Lilies are both of our favourite flowers..so I'm getting two lilies, one for her & one for me.. She has helped me more than anyone with this miscarriage... she is the reason I am sober & the reason I am here...quite literally... There were a couple nights I wasn't sure I was going to make it, she's the only reason I didn't make an attempt on my life..our love kept me strong & I knew I could never do that to her.. She is my everything, my forever & always <3

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deleted_user
deleted_user

How beautiful!! I am so pleased that Jess is helping you to achieve your goals. Keep in mind that this is the \'real world\' that we live in and many will not understand your plans with Jess as a mate. I am liberal, so no need to mind my opinion. I only desire that you should be happy and alive!! You are very smart and I trust you as well. Just make certain that you already have the knowledge necessary to confront the negative opinions of hypocrites. No person can judge you for your choices. Strive to stay happy with your choices and move towards your personal success in life. I hope the same for Jess as well. I thank her for supporting you and giving so much love and attention to your care and happiness. Perhaps, your love with Jess is for now the best treatment to pull you through this depression and I accept that for your sake.

Thanks for sharing your thoughts of your special relationship with Jess ...

Aelle
acinorev92
acinorev92

Thanks Aelle for your support, I know very well that some people may not like that I am with a woman, I have dealt with people who weren\'t accepting of my sexual orientation, and I can accept & respect that some people are not comfortable with it. It is nice to know that you are okay with it Aelle, thank you. I have never felt more myself with anyone than when I am with Jess, nor have I ever felt happier. I do not wish to have people comment negatively about my relationship, I chose to express my thoughts about my girlfriend in my journal, if you don\'t like it, don\'t read it & don\'t mind it :)
deleted_user
deleted_user

Well said...;)
acinorev92
acinorev92

Thank you, just speaking from the heart. I have been verbally & physically assaulted, and I have lost people I considered to be friends, but to me, it\'s all worth it..it\'s worth it if it means I\'m being true to myself, and I\'m truly happy.
angel1313
angel1313

VERY WELL SAID SORRY SWEETIE IM NOT YELLING HAVING TROUBLE WITH MY EYES, I AM VERY PROUD OF BOTH OF U TO STOP DRINKING & THAT SHE HAS HELPED U IN SO MANY WAYS & UR SO RIGHT IF PEOPLE DON\'T WANT TO READ OR REPLY THEN LOOK THE OTHER WAY, THIS IS YOUR LIFE NOT ANYONE ELSES - U DESERVE TO BE HAPPY & LOOK AHEAD UR DOING REALLY GOOD KEEP IT UP SWEETIE - U KEEP SHINNING ON......CAN\'T WAIT TO SEE PICTURES..
((LUV U,ANGEL)))).
angel1313
angel1313

U GO GIRL U PUT THAT SMILE BIG ON UR FACE & BE HAPPY........
(((ANGEL)))) SHINE ON..........
acinorev92
acinorev92

(NOT YELLING-HELPING ANGEL SEE) THANKS HUNNY, I REALLY APPRECIATE THE SUPPORT! YOU\'RE TRULY A GREAT FRIEND ANGEL, I HOPE YOUR EYES ARE OKAY..ANY IDEA WHAT\'S GOING ON WITH THEM?
deleted_user
deleted_user

Hello dear ones! It\'s so true, acinorev, yourself first; be true, always, to you firtstly...

Aelle
deleted_user
deleted_user

Ah-hahaha! What with all the yelling? Am I missing something personal here? ha! Come, come my dear ones! Just a bit of fun to move the day along with pleasure, huh? Now let\'s all go in for a cup of herbal tea; it\'s rather calming for the nerves, ahhaha! My love to you both!

Aelle
deleted_user
deleted_user

...I suppose that I mean firstly...haha! Let me say this one again: Be true, always, to you firstly. I probably had a bug in my eye, haha!

Aelle
acinorev92
acinorev92

haha, awe aelle... Angel was caps-locking for her vision issue.. so i followed in suit so she would see it better! :)
Thanks for the all the love hun!

Acinorev
deleted_user
deleted_user

...haha, then we will have Eyebright herbal tea for the comfort of our sweet (((angel butterfly))). And dear angel, I hope that your beautiful eyes will increase with perfect health!

Aelle
deleted_user
deleted_user

...and acinorev...you are welcome to all my love...

Aelle