I tried to unplug
I've been away for a while cause I found myself trapped online... with facebook, twitter, spotify and all my social groups...
you know what I found?
with me online I just find heartache and trouble... I came online cause in the real world thats all I found was heartache and trouble
its not an escape... its just another source to find it...
I feel like just locking myself inside and just watch... if I go out or go online its back to the same ol' shit
I know thats not living but its better than my living in pain heartache and misery
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this is the only place (literally) I find peace
What exactly is bringing you down? Reading about other peoples troubles and problems?
Don't keep going to so many troubled sites. Stay at one, express yourself and let people know how you feel, good or bad. We might be able to advice and support you better.
what bringing me down is my own issues... when I talk about other site it places like facebook and twitter... things like that... just the social sites,,, Im finding I dont get along with people and it usually turns out bad
I find people too judgemental before getting the whole story and from the things they say lets just say Im kinda getting tired of the stupidity and rudeness... especially if you dont know that person... I know peo[ple are like that cause they can hide behind their computer screens... but that not quite it through
my past always seems to come up and bite me in the ass
as hard as I try to let go of my past it always comes back on its own... thats where my facebook comes in... all my friends and family are there and each one knows my past one way or another... so I try to get a gf and she is on my facebook and someone from my past starts rambleing about shit I did that pisses her off.. then someone else then someone else
I lost a few gfs from that
I can understand cause I lived it and I can barely deal with it myself
I moved from Canada to the States and to the other side of the country an do you think I would be safe from the shit I tried to leave behind? it all fallowed me through all the social media shit... somebody knows something about my past
if any of you remember me theres nothing good from my past... NOTHING
ok now my issues... Im not a very nice man lets just say that... my past made me an animal... well not that bad but press the wrong buttons with me and I turn into someone else
now I've been going to therapy to try and do something about that but nobody know what to do
I have a gf now and everything you can do bad in a relationship I pretty much did... except cheat... just the anger jealousy... controlling... all the fun stuff... anyway Im surprised shes still hanging around my sorry ass...
well its the same long-distance relationship from what I mentioned before so she is not exactly in a good position herself to really say anything
but this is what I want and I want to finally lose my past and move on and try to be happy but nobody knows how to fix me... I cant be the only one that went through a bad past and it affects them in adulthood
that is my biggest problem right there
I am seriously messed up from my past that I cant find happiness because of it
thats why I wanna unplug and leave everything... and hope it dont find me and continue looking for help
so the short of it all is Im F'd up and its interfering with my life
I have so many triggers that I can go a day without 10 or more things pissing me off... thats why I just wanna crawl away and hide