I swear, Hell must have frozen over

Earlier today I decided I would text Scott, the guy who I was best friends with/dated briefly/was in love with but who also decided he didn't want anything to do with me once I started dating a guy he hated. I was given an ultimatum, the first guy I had a connection with that wasn't Scott since my previous bf of 3 years who I was practically engaged to, or my best friend who I had been in love with for the past 5 years. I was hurt when he gave me the ultimatum, but had hope that he would eventually speak to me again.. Today that happened! I decided to send a cheerful, light-hearted text message to him, just said "Hey you! How's it going? :)" and later in the evening he actually called me and we chatted briefly and he was wanting to meet up but I already had plans for the evening. I'm still in a state of shock that he responded, let alone called and talked... I really had no hope of us ever being friends again, which was quite a depressing thought especially because he's now dating my ex gf/best friend Jessyka. I just feel like a weight has been lifted, a weight I didn't realize was affecting me as much as it was... It's a nice feeling! :) 
On a different note, I've found myself thinking about alcohol a lot more recently, I keep having this feeling that I can handle my alcohol if I wanted to drink, and even if I could, I know I can't handle my mental disorder once I've had alcohol in my system. I keep finding myself in an auto-pilot mode going for alcohol that I have in my fridge/pantry that is mine/my brother's gf's (she was given it but doesn't really like it and told me I could have it). I still haven't had any alcohol though, I have no clue how many days sober I am now, guess I'll find out as soon as I post this and update my goal! :D 50+ days, that's all I know! haha! 

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angel1313

So proud of you on both keep up the great work your doing sweetie keep that faith & (((Keep Smilin)))..
Luv ya..