I'm not okay with losing him....
I'm not okay with losing my best friend... my absolute best friend.. my person, my sobriety sponsor, the man I loved for two and a half years... I'm not okay with losing him... He's my dog's "daddy"... my dog who is sick and dying... and he knows this... he knows how important it is for him to be around and he's not... he know's my sister is in the hospital and he's not here... he's not around... he knows i'm not okay....and he doesn't care..he doesn't text me to ask about her.... He was so close with my family, he was always around... It's killing me that he's not here for me... and it's all because of someone i called my best friend... I didn't care that my best friend went for my boyfriend while i was dating him... I was secure in my relationship.. I didnt care that the second we broke up, she went for him and is now dating him... but I do care, that because of her... because of that bitch.. i've lost my best friend... I'm not okay with that.... I'm falling apart and I'm fighting to stay sober... every minute is a fight.... a fight to stay sober.. a fight to keep going... a fight not to just give in... i want so badly to text him.. to tell him i miss my best friend.. that i need him... but i can't do that.. because he chose her over me.. and if i do that it'll upset her and i'll get in between them and i don't want to start a fight... I just hate her for taking my best friend from me... I was already mad at her.. for what she said about baby Briar... but this... this is really unforgivable... I don't hate people.. it's not my thing... but her... i fucking hate her... I wish i never introduced them... I wish she never dated my other best friend/ex first and she never would have broken his heart to be with my ex to break my heart taking him away from me.... I just can't do it.... I can't lose him....
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OH SWEETIE YOU WILL GET THRU THIS YOU ARE STRONG & BRIGHT & YOU HAVE THE WILL POWER TO KEEP ON FIGHTING STAND UP TALL U CAN DO IT I AM PRAYING FOR U YOUR SISTER IT WILL GET BETTER REMEMBER THAT LITE AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL IT WILL GET EASIER.
(((LUV,ANGEL)))).
Thanks angel... I\'m trying... I finally opened up to Jess and told her how I feel...how heartbroken I am... I was scared to tell her... I don\'t know if it did much good..but.. it doesn\'t seem to have made anything worse.....
Dear love,
This is not life-threatening occurrences going on here; this is to your favor. And this relationship is still at an early stage; things have a way of changing where there is lots of positive hope in heart, my sweet one keep hoping. But I am happy that this is straight-talk and that youve set your goals on the hopes of protecting what you desire in life. Keep journaling, my love.
Thanks to (((angel butterfly))) for taking good care of you as well. My love to both of you and I will look forward to seeing you later on.
Love Aelle
Thanks Love!
I\'m trying to move forward & be okay! It\'s just been a hard few months on me and feeling betrayed & rejected is really hard.. But I\'m doing better so worry not! Now if only my knee would heal.....*sigh*..
Love acinorev
Hi acinorev!
You are moving along at a steady pace, which is very well with you. I am so sorry that the past few months have challenged you so, dear one. But do remember that this is just a temporary thought pattern and you have abilities to get through this tough time. Soon you will draw upon many strong emotional resources to help your needs. You get stronger and build your storehouse of emotional comfort day by day. It is a tiresome process but it happens as you stay focused with the talents you learn now as you hurt and overcome this challenging feeling by your strong faith in that which is good within you and that\'s growing out of these challenges for the purpose of healing your mind during the lowly moments. And I am asking that \"Higher Power\" for your healing, and your sweet knee is a part of this spiritual request, haha! I love you!
Aelle
Thanks hunny!
I am working to stay strong and with the love, help & support I get from both you Aelle & Angel, it makes it a bit easier to keep moving forward with positive thoughts in mind.
Thanks for the healing wishes, hopefully it helps ;)
Love acinorev
:-)
You are so very welcome, acinorev. Best to you, dear love...
Aelle
Thanks for the update, acinorev...then, I will leave you in very capable hands, haha! I\'m so happy that you are once again getting the help that you deserve, but still, very sorry about the circumstances of your pain. No worry at all, dear love. Seems that this therapist is on top of the matter for sure. I suppose that this is my outlet, hugs to you...and off into the sunset I fly, please take care, acinorev; it\'s been a pleasure to be your friend. All my love!! And please stay happy and positive.
angel butterfly, I am leaving acinorev with you for safe keeping. Please look out for both of you. :-)
Aelle
Thanks Aelle, I really appreciate all your help with everything
;-)
I know...
Love Aelle
Thank u so much for trusting in me means so much 2 me-- yes i will keep looking after Acinorev & tryin 2 take care of me - sorry haven\'t been here few rough days again...
i will do my best 2 keep checking on both of u....
((((Luv ya,Angel)))))...