I'm back

I don't even know when I was here last but I know a lot has happened. 

The good news is that after half a lifetime wondering what the hell is wrong with me, I've finally got something to hold onto. In March this year I got the diagnosis Borderline personality disorder. I was relieved. Finally finally finally some recognition. I felt verified. I wasn't just imagining things.

Soon I realized that having a name on my problems didn't help much. I still have miles to go but I feel like someone at the very least as given me a map.