I\'m Back!!

Hey Everyone,Its Becka, i'm back! I want to say thank you to everyone for all your hugs and messages and i want to say a special thanks yo Bettybelle who came on here and let you all know what was going on.I missed you guys so much, i want to be honest with you guys so thats what i'm about to do and i know i may upset some people and might make some angry and i apologize in advance for that.I'm now out of hospital but not because i'm better but because i lied and said i was better. I was so petrified about talking and about being asked over and over whats going on inside my head and i dont know how to answer that i cant because i cant make sense of whats going on inside my head.So i told the doctor i was fine and was safe to go home but i dont really feel that way but i'm gonna try, i'm gonna try to keep myself safe.I know deep down i should've stayed in hospital and been somewhere i was safe but i'm a coward and i just couldn't.I want to say a special thank you to Aunty Robin for the support she gave me and a special thank you to Jules who phoned me whilst i was in there, i'm sorry i missed your call.Sending *HUGE huggles* to you ALL!!Luvya Loadsxoxox 

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xxx Im glad you are ok (but please try and be safe too) We care about you. Luv you too, and i have been thinking of you and still will because i can.

Stay safe, and Im here if you want to chat or whatever
xxx M
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O BABY GIRL I AM GLAD UR BACK N GLAD UR DOIN BETTER,U HANG IN THERE N KNOW UR SPECIAL N I LOVE U LOTS,KEEP HANGIN IN HERE WITH US..HUGSSSSSS,ANN
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I am so glad that you are b ack. I have been thinking so much about you but I always do. I love you 2. I am here if you need or want to talk. love you
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Hang in there and please be safe and talk if you are feeling badly. I love you and hold you tightly in my heart always. Hugs to your Aunty, she is awesome and love jules too. I love you always.xxxx
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Hi there glad to see you back and this time, if your worried or want to talk i am here for you big hugs to you and take care love Shirlsxx
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glad your back and better. good luck with all your new friends.
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Im soooo glad your ok (well out anyways) i hope you will stay strong and fight...
Ive missed you sooooooooooo much

Love you loads
L.
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Don\'t feel bad about lying to get out...I recently did that. I felt like I was upsetting my husband and everyone else that knew I was in the hospital. I hope you can stay safe. Take care. Tonya
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Glad to know you are safe, stay on the positive side, read and listen to things that will help you, here\'s a radio station online for positive alternative rock music www.air1.com , God bless you!
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glad ur bak...plz try keep urself safe honey...here if u need me...love ur sis xxxx
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I hope you\'re okay...and if you start scaring yourself again, get yourself back there. It\'s hard but this is your life and it\'s worth living. Please take care of yourself...please.
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honey i really dont know what to say except i love you and want you to get your life back on tract you are young and can build such a beautiful life for yourself and have a beautiful family of your own . you just have to believe in yourself . you can do it . i know you can love and hugs.gg
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I hope things will continue to improve and I do apologise for not being here enough for you, but I am trying to. it\'s hard when my back in hurting alot or I am just very tired, but I\'m gonna keep trying to do my best, just like you are too! take care and lots of love and huggles!