i can't do it today
maybe it's pms. but i just can't stand it right now that he was gone for so long, that i had to threaten him to get him to tell me he was alive. that he alluded to having cheated. that he told me that i was the one with the disorder. my 3 books are at my dad's office. i want to go get them and read them. i fee like crying. i want to go to sleep. i want to talk to him but he's working and he has counseling tonight and so i have to wait until 10, which is fine, accept that i'm tired, exhausted, and just want to fucking sleep the pain away.
ugh. what's happening??? i feel like running away right now.
ugh. what's happening??? i feel like running away right now.
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jf I were you, I would pick sleeping. my ex would keep me awake in argument till all hours, but I can\'t remember a single issue that got resolved after midnight. \"Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.\"
thanks. i started reading one of my secret books. some of that feeling has passed. wow, i was tired, i said accept instead of except. i think i just need to get more alone time. hopefully he\'ll understand. he\'s actually kind of good about that, if the timing is right...