holding pattern

There are some days  I feel so tired - I want to crawl into my bed and sleep the entire day.  My huband announced yesterday that he will be accepting a new job at HALF the salary of his current job - but he will be doing what he enjoys.  His current company believes in treating it's employees like servants - they are rude, bullying and condescending and my husband deals with this on a daily basis. I understand why he's leaving.   I am now the breadwinner of the family. it's bad timing because   I also had a repressed memory start to make itself known recently - and I'm still not clear on the sexual abuse i suffered.  I'm dealing with body memories, depression, lethargy - and sometimes I'm not sure if i'm going to make it thru the day. This job shift makes me nervous.  My daughter starts public school in September - this will lesson some of the financial burden.  

Although I've told my husband about this repressed memory.  I've told him that sometimes I feel really bad. He listens - but in a manner where he does not seem to have acknowledged at all what I just said.  He never makes any comments about it.  He never mentions it.  He only talks about his unhapiness at his job.  I'm not sure what I want or need.  I feel incredibly disconnected.  I feel anger or resentment towards him.  I'm not sure what i want or how to correct this.

"Loneliness is the human condition. Cultivate it. The way it tunnels into you, allows your soul room to grow.  Never expect to outgrow loneliness.  Never hope to find people who will understand you, someone to fill that space. An intelligent, sensitive person is the exception, the very great exception.  If you expect to find people who will understand you, you will grow murderous with disappointment.  The best you'll ever do is to understand yourself, know what it is you want, and not let the cattle stand in your way. "  -Janet Finch