HEAVY HEART AND CATCH UP

HELLO EVERYONE.  IT HAS BEEN A WHILE.  I COME TONIGHT WITH A HEAVY HEART AS ANOTHER MOTHER AND FATHER ARE WALKING OUR WALK.  I KNOW I COULD COME HERE.  ON JUNE 27TH JOHN AND I CELEBRATED OUR 25TH WEDDING ANNIVERSARY TO HAVE THE NIGHT ENDING IN HEART BREAKING NEWS.  MEGAN BETH ROBERTS AGE 20 JOINED JOSH THAT DAY.  MEGAN GREW UP WITH JOSH AND ATTEND ALL OF THE ROAD CLEAN UPS WHEN SHE COULD.  JOHN AND I ARE VERY CLOSE TO HER FAMILY. MEGAN WAS FOUND IN HER POOL BY HER SISTER.  WHEN I HEARD THIS NEWS ON THE 27TH IT CRUSHED MY HEART AND THE TEARS BEGAN.  JUST KNOWING WHAT THE FAMILY WAS GOING THROUGH AND WHAT IS AHEAD OF THEM.  MEGAN LEAVES BEHIND A 2 YEAR OLD DAUGHTER.  HER PARENTS LIVE IN WEST VIRIGINA.  THE FATHER HAS RETURNED TO CONTIUE TO OPERATE THEIR BUSINESS.  THE MOTHER WENT BACK LAST WEEK BUT WAS ABOUT TO GO CRAZY TO GET BACK HERE WHERE IN HER WORDS FEEL CLOSER TO MEGAN.  HER MOTHER REMINDS ME OF MYSELF IN THOSE EARLY DAYS.  PEOPLE.  JUST SAYING CRAZY THINGS AND NOT MEANING THEM AND JUST NOT KNOWING WHAT TO SAY.  SOMETIMES IT IS BETTER FOR PEOPLE NOT TO SAY ANYTHING AT ALL.  I SAW A POST FROM ON FACEBOOK TODAY TALKING ABOUT PRAYERS NOT BEING ANSWERED AND HOW THE SUN DOES ALWAYS SHINE EVERYDAY.  THAT COMMENT HAS REALLY HIT HOME TONIGHT.  I PRAYED AND PRAYED ALMOST 6 YEARS AGO WHEN I WENT LOOKING FOR JOSH.  MY PRAYERS THAT DAY WERE NOT ANSWERED.  I CALLED HER I WAS ONE THAT COULD HONESTLY SAY I KNEW WHERE SHE WAS COMING FROM.  MY HEART BREAKS FOR HER AND HER FAMILY.  I WILL BE SENDING HER AN EMAIL WITH THE FMO INFORMATION HOPING SHE WILL FIND US.  PLEASE KEEP MEGANS FAMILY IN YOUR PRAYERS.
TO MOTHERS YOU ATTEND THE RETREAT.  JOHN AND I MISSED YOU THIS YEAR BUT IT HAPPENED TO BE THE VERY WEEKEND WE LEFT FOR A WEEK AT THE BEACH.  LOVE YOU ALL AND HOPE TO SEE YOU NEXT YEAR.
DEAR JOSH,  I KNOW YOU HAVE WELCOMED MEGAN IN HEAVEN NOW.  PLEASE TELL HER TO SEND HER MOTHER A SIGN THAT SHE IS OK.  HER MOTHER NEEDS COMFORT TO KNOW SHE IS ALRIGHT.  TAKE CARE OF HER.  LOVE YOU MAMA