Hard times
I'm having such a hard time right now. I still miss Gene so much and Thanksgiving seems to have set me back a month on the progress I thought I was making. I can't bring myself to go Christmas shopping or even think about decorating. I know that a year from now I will be in a better place, but that really isn't helping me right now. I talked to my son about not putting the tree up this year and he agreed that I shouldn't push myself to do anything I'm not ready to do. Everyone keeps telling me I'm going to make it through the next month, but it doesn't feel that way to me. I have fleeting thoughts of just giving in to the grief and letting it take over. The tears fall every day again and there's no escaping the pain.
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I am right there with you sweetie. I have a feeling that this might be one of the hardest months for us. I am not decorating either....I just plain don\'t have the heart for it this year! Yes a year from now, no doubt we will be better...it\'s just too soon.
I understand your pain and like you I don\'t have the energy or feeling to decorate. Christmas is right around the corner yet it does not feel like it and it is normal because our love one is not here with us. I don\'t enjoy anything and everyday is a struggle to keep going. I know that next year will be a bit better but for now how do we manage to make it. I think we have to hold one to our faith and ask God to guide and give us the strenght to continue. God bless you. Hugs Linda