happiness

A very personal and touching experience, but I feel that I should write about it. Some days ago I was in a horrible mood, hurting so badly, just wanting to die. Partially because of HIM, partially because of my life. And i was praying to God to stop this agony. And I was answered. I felt such an incredible love. Fulfiling love. Such a blessing. And i've never been happier. I just want to open my heart for His blessings, for His presents. To let Him help me with my personal problems, with depression, heartache and hunger for love. To let Him give me a good husband. I fear intimacy and close relationships terrify me, and I know I would prob turn this guy down right now. I wanna start a therapy and just be proactive. I want to trust Him completely. I prayed today for you sisters, for your successful healing. Bless you.