Got to talk to my son!

I called my oldest son today, and I'm feeling really happy right now.  I miss him so much, and he's growing so quickly.  I feel like I'm missing out on a lot.  But at least talking to him over the phone lightens the burden in my heart that I feel for him.  It's just so strange not being with him every day.  And it only drives me to be a better mom to my younger son.  It's difficult being a broken family, but it's a lot better then losing my son forever.  I have friends that have lost their children to death, and I'm just thankful my kids are alive and well.  Things didn't turn out the way I had planned, but I'm still very blessed with great family and friends.