Going to retain an attorney

Well, my husband and I postponed going to mediation, which was the biggest mistake of my life.  My husband still has no job and near as I can see has no prospects for getting one.  He is depressed, but not getting it treated.  I don't know what else to do.  Life remains miserable. My therapist has helped me reach the decision that I need to proceed with divorce and so I intend to.  I have an appointment with an attorney next week.  I am going to take the first step to reclaiming my happiness.  I just pray that I have the courage to follow though.  The conflict and distress is killing me.