Getting tired of these virgin drinks....

I'm finding it more and more difficult to control my craving for alcohol recently.. I have a new favourite drink, orange juice mixed with cranberry juice, and all I can think of how amazing it would be with vodka.. Vodka-Cran was my drink of choice.. I just keep seeing the vodka in my fridge, and I keep wanting to just add a little to my drink, help take the edge off.. help relax a bit... I'm almost 100 days sober, and that's a big step for me.. I don't want to lose that, but I'm having so much trouble staying sober. I need to overcome this, part of me wishes I were able to drink again... I know I can't, and it's driving me insane. There's a part of me that needs that release.. it needs that alternate state.. it's a state that I also enjoyed when I got high..but since my sister's bipolar disorder getting triggered by weed, and discovering that I too have already triggered the disorder in my body.. It's probably the worst thing I could do. I want so badly to get high, or drink.. I can't do either. The only other thing that makes me feel how I need to feel is running.. I get a runners high that lasts for days, but with the constant injuries... I'm still healing my torn ligament, if I were to push it and go running I could re-tear it and be out for much longer.. I'm not supposed to do anything strenuous until the end of the month. It feels better, it feels healed, but I know it takes 8-12 weeks, and the end of the month is only 8 weeks. 

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angel1313
angel1313

SWEETIE EVERYTIME U GET THIS FEELING 2 DRINK OR GET HIGH PLEASE WRITE ME ANYTIME *** U KNOW IM USUALLY UP VERY LATE AS DON\'T GET MUCH SLEEP*** UR DOING SUPER**KEEP UP THE GREAT WORK***LUV YA***
deleted_user
deleted_user

hang in there dont drink find a healthier obsession my mother died of it I am hard headed ,, pour me pour me pour me a drink GRATITUDE
acinorev92
acinorev92

Thanks Angel, I really appreciate you saying that! I saved your number and email so I\'ll definitely text you when needed! I really appreciate you\'re love and support!

I\'ve been trying bmwlover, a while back I started doing \"crayon art\" (melt crayons onto a canvas) but now I\'ve started doing paint-by-numbers. I was working out a lot before but I keep getting injured...still healing a torn ligament :/ I\'m trying!