Well, I went out with my friend and her daughter yesterday to get a dress for her homecoming dance. She's a freshman in high school and just a sweet girl. She loved the first dress she tried on and ended up getting it. We picked out a pair of shoes and some jewelry to go with it. She's going to knock those guys right off their feet! Went out to lunch afterwards then came home. I did alright. I was kind of quiet at lunch, but at least I didn't break down and cry. When I got back to the house I threw on some old clothes and headed for the garage. I felt so close to Gene in there. I cleaned off one of his workbenches then went and sat on the motorcycle we use to ride together. I could almost feel him with me. I tried to go through some things in our room last night but ended up totally losing it when I opened the closet. There are just some things I am not ready to face and his clothes seem to be the biggest hurdle I'll have to overcome one day. He had a drawer in the kitchen where he used to empty his pockets when he came home and I found a load of change in there. I ended up wrapping nickels, dimes and quarters last night. It was all I could do to get through it. I threw out some old candy bars I found in there then just put everything else back the way I found it. I need to remind myself every day that it will all get done when the time is right. I seem to be pushing myself these days to do what my heart isn't ready to do. I talked with my sister in law yesterday about the holidays. I don't know how I'm going to face them this year. She gave me an open invitation to her house, but right now I can't even think about it.