Getting By

It's been a while since I've wrote anything here.  I'm still pretty much just getting by with life.  I miss Gene everyday and cry most days.  I'm hating my job because it's so boring and there isn't a lot of work for me right now.  We have to fill out timesheets every two weeks and account for the hours we've worked on different projects.  Well, my timesheet has more overhead hours than project hours because there just isn't any project work for me to do.  I've really got to get serious about finding a new job because sitting here with nothing to do only makes me feel worse and doesn't keep me occupied or challenged--then I start thinking about Gene and I have to run out to my car crying.  It's just bad right now. 
Still have my mom living with me which doesn't make life any easier.  She's ungrateful and that really makes me angry.  We're trying to get her into a senior's apartment up near where my sister lives, but the waiting list is long, too long.  I don't see any relief in sight.
All sounds so depressing, I know.  Kind of how I'm feeling today.  I just want to be busy and keep my mind off everything else.