GAY PRIDE

I wish Jackie could have been here for this. My daughter was gay. She would have been so happy New York legalized gay marriage. When she first came out I had such a hard time. I thought my world was shattered. Key word MY. I learned fast through a wonderful group PFLAG that it certainly wasnt about me. We became so close. A whole new world opened up and for the first time I saw my daughter happy. She accepted who she was and so did me and my family. We were so close. We did everything together. We even got matching tattoos. WHAT HAPPENED. The pain in her head was overwhelming. She was on 21 pills a day. Its so frustrating to think, please let me turn back time and get her off some of those meds. She would haullinate sometimes at nite. She was so so frustrated. No one could help. This is not a good day for me. I have to get out of the house. I cant go to the cemetary yet because her name is not on the stone and I wont go until it is. I hate this. I hate this I hate this.