Flashes

I can be sitting and doing anything, I can even be driving, or talking, or walking and or in a conversation, and an image takes over my mind and swallows my attention whole - they are images of my mom - in her cancer state, various stages, and they just come and knock me over and make me cry and talk out loud to myself....I will say over and over again..."I can't believe you are gone...where did you go?"  "How is this real"...those kind of thoughts...and the images are big and full of life for me...now I see them and I want to keep them - I want to write them down like they are a snap shot library...I don't want these images to fade from my mind - I don't want to loose my mom's ghost.  I miss her so.