Finally snapped.....
Over the past couple days whenever I text my best friend she's complained about being sick with a cold or whatever, so I texted her tonight to see how she's doing... this is how it went..
Me: Feeling any better?
Ali: Starting to yeah. :) finally
Me: That's good, I'm happy to hear that
Ali: Thanks :)
so... this is where I snapped... and here's the message I sent. I'm not going to post the following conversation, I just completely lost it on her and this is what was said.
Me: I'm not gonna beat around the bush... What's going on with us? Did I miss some big thing that happened where we don't talk anymore? Yeah, lives get busy and all that crap, but we've never gone multiple days without talking...and a conversation never ends after 4 fucking texts without a how are you doing nicky? I know you found out you might have cancer, that must really fucking suck. Are you okay? Sorry, I was doing so well and keeping cool... I'm just tired of feeling like no one gives a flying fuck about how I'm doing. I know your sick, so I ask how you are, when your grandpa was sick, I was messaging you... What happened that we've become so distant that the simple common courtesy of asking someone how they are after they've asked you has been completely eliminated. Yeah, I tried to keep my cool, but this has been building up for a while and I refuse to let it stew inside of me till I crack and drink.
Me: Feeling any better?
Ali: Starting to yeah. :) finally
Me: That's good, I'm happy to hear that
Ali: Thanks :)
so... this is where I snapped... and here's the message I sent. I'm not going to post the following conversation, I just completely lost it on her and this is what was said.
Me: I'm not gonna beat around the bush... What's going on with us? Did I miss some big thing that happened where we don't talk anymore? Yeah, lives get busy and all that crap, but we've never gone multiple days without talking...and a conversation never ends after 4 fucking texts without a how are you doing nicky? I know you found out you might have cancer, that must really fucking suck. Are you okay? Sorry, I was doing so well and keeping cool... I'm just tired of feeling like no one gives a flying fuck about how I'm doing. I know your sick, so I ask how you are, when your grandpa was sick, I was messaging you... What happened that we've become so distant that the simple common courtesy of asking someone how they are after they've asked you has been completely eliminated. Yeah, I tried to keep my cool, but this has been building up for a while and I refuse to let it stew inside of me till I crack and drink.
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In my time zone I\'m still 191 days sober, give it an hour and a half and I\'ll be at 192!
Good for you for getting your feelings out there. I hope she opened up instead of shutting down.
*****AWESOME****ANGEL IS SOOOOOOOOO VERY PROUD OF YOU WHOOO - HOOOO Sorry abt the way u let her have it but u sweetie don\'t need to keep it all inside u know how I know the feeling - Hope she opens up to you if not u can\'t take the blame for the way she has been acting with you - ***YOU HAVE COME SO VERY FAR & I COULDN\'T BE MORE PROUDER OF YOU THAN I AM RIGHT NOW U GO GIRL*** I LUV U***
Just realized I never commented on how it went afterwards... Her and I are okay now, we talked and she understands where I\'m coming from and we talk more frequently, not every day still, but we also have plans for thursday. She\'s been really busy and didn\'t realize how I was feeling, I\'m glad I talked to her about it and we sorted everything out. :)