In EMDR sessions, I start to feel a tingly feeling in my hands. Strangely -the weird sensations I typically only feel at EMDR sessions -have been affecting me all day for several days- it's like this constant zigzagging tingly stream of anxiety zipping around my body. I'm not sure if this is possibly a sign that I'm getting closer to my truth?
I joined a writing class. My assignment is to write about a significant person in my life between the age of 5 and 17. Write it from the point of view of the little kid at the time of knowing this significant other. Then, rewrite it looking back on the events as an adult. I'm going to write about my high school best friend Bella (not her real name). I would spend the night at her house and we would talk about how our parents phsycially abused us like we were talking about how someone spilled a glass of lemonaide. yeh so Bella's mom would make her neal on the bathroom tiles for hours, or flung a curling iron across her head. I will specifically write about how we both were bridesmades at a wedding. I remember being extremely annoyed with Bella. She was bulimic. At the rehersal dinner she was eating plate after plate of food - and then going to the bathroom and puking it up. People noticed and she was embarassing me. bella died at the age of 35. I still don't know why. Her sister died at the same age 7 years prior. As an adult, looking back - of course I see things so differently. Sometimes looking at the past is liking looking at another lifetime.