Fed up

Completely fed up today. Pain has been a bit easier for the past 2 days and I'm starting to function a bit better but now my mental state is taking a nose dive. I've been stuck in doors now for 2 weeks with nothing to do but struggle with the chores on a daily basis. I want to get back to normality but still signed off work for another 2 days. Even then I'm not completely looking forward to it as I don't know what action is being taken with regards to the complaint about my manager. I have tried to keep myself occupied today but I can't stay focused on anything, not even the Olympics which I usually watch avidly. Tried to get some sleep earlier to pass some time but can't even do that, keep waking with a start, holding my breath and unable to let it out. I'm guessing its anxiety due to the work situation. Why did I do that to myself? I've just gone and made things a whole lot worse! I applied for about a dozen jobs last week, all closer to home in the hope that by cutting out my commute everyday I might get through the day with less pain. Also I need to get myself away from the negative atmosphere at work created by my manager. I hope I start to hear back from them on Monday so I can get an idea of what my options are. The way I feel at the moment if the boss gives me grief on weds I may just walk! (Or limp depending on this failing body of mine!) ugh!