Facing my demons tomorrow... keep the good fight going!
Today an ex bf of mine messaged me out of the blue and said he wanted to catch up, and hang out some time.. i thought it was pretty strange but I figured why not, so we've been chatting all day and it's been great. I can tell he wants me back.. well.. i could tell, then he damn near said it flat out.. Not what i was planning on writing about tho. We chatted a bit, i filled him in on my miscarriage and found out he works at the hospital i had it at and worked the day i was in there.. odd coincidence.. after a while he asked if i want to meet up at the hospital and grab coffee in the cafe and catch up... i agreed after consulting with my wonderful girlfriend (who i havent stopped talking about with him)... so tomorrow, i am entering the place that i had my miscarriage in..for the first time since the miscarriage... it also happens to be the hospital my granddad died in 7 years ago jan 4th.. and the place a neighbor of mine who i was close to died in... so it's really not my favourite hospital, but i'm facing my demons, i'm gonna keep on fighting and i am going to face that hospital head on!! Can't hide from it forever, and who knows it i'll have to go there again in the future..i'd rather face it now when i feel strong enough to than face it later when im forced to.
wish me luck!!
wish me luck!!
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So true, face it now, because you never know what the future holds in store.
RIP to your dear granddad and many happy memories to come of him.
Aelle
Yes face it as u do not know when u mite need to go there. (((Hugs to you from your Granddad))))..
((((Luv u,Angel)))).
Thanks ladies, I appreciate the love & support from you both, and I especially appreciate you both acknowledging my grand-dad, I never got a chance to really get to know him...my one and only true regret.
Hello acinorev,
I know what your grand means to you now and perhaps there is still a way to explore his background...perhaps by studying family history in your spare time...now this is a good idea, huh? :)
Aelle
Hey hunny,
That would be a very good idea.. I have considered making contact with his old lover Michael, but my family kind of lost touch with him a few years after his death.. so I\'m not sure if it would really be my place to ask for any contact info.. and i\'m not sure how Michael would feel, I\'d rather not upset anyone. I may look into studying our family history, i studied a bit of my grandma\'s family history with her assistance, it was quite intriguing..
Acinorev
Acinorev, you really don\'t have to ask any person for FH info. Your local library will have someone familiar with genealogy and this skilled person will help you to get off to a knowledgeable start to searching for ancestry. This really is a great way to take your mind away from stress and it\'s rather interesting to find so much history about those you are related to and never had the chance to meet. Take your time to think about it more but please don\'t let this idea disturb your peace.
Thanks Aelle, I\'ll definitely keep it in mind, school just started up again so i\'ll be pretty busy with studying, having it keep me busy so at least that\'s a distraction from the real world for a couple days a week..