Eleven weeks

Eleven weeks without my love, my life, my strength.  I want to thank each and everyone of you for being here for me even though you are all dealing with your own grief or otherlife changing issues. You are truly amazing people with more strength than you realize. I have a strong belief that everything happens for a reason, even if it is unclear to us today.  One thing that is clear to me today is that I couldn't get through this without the love and friendship I've found here on DS.  Each one of you understands more than anyone else in my life what I am going through.  Not that my family and friends aren't understanding and caring and I thank them too.  But each of you have shared in my grief in a different way.  A way that only those of us who have had the foundation of their lives taken away can understand.  I once stood on solid ground, confident in my life and my future with Gene.  Now there are days when I feel the earth is sucking me in and sucking the life out of me.  The weight of the world on my shoulders pushing me down.  Feeling as though I'm standing still and the world is going on around me.  It is on these days that I come here to DS and find the strength I need to pull my feet out of the earth and go on just one more moment, one more day.  Today I am so very grateful to each of you for your kindness and support and I wish each of you peace in your heart and love in your life.