dumb and good
I am going to write about the good first. I was so hungry at 6, wanted to eat something, thought of peanut butter but knew danny had finished it, a lightbulb went on form a comment made on one of my journals. I made a glass of chocolate milk and was that good and it filled me up. I just couldn't stand how hungry I was. I had done a lotof activity and was in the middle of making some new planters and I had to stop. yeah me!!!
the stupid part is me overdoing it again later.i went in the back anfd hand tlled the back garden, it wasn't tat hard as the soil was wet, but I knew my knee was aching and i was hot. i did stop around 7 and showered. after showering a had a bit of frozen yogurt and made my oblitatory phone calls. my body is not liking me this morning, and the humidity isn't helping. its going to be a long day today at work......
wow, hated that alarm this morning, i was woken during the night with the many thunderstorms and they are still going on.
I wonder why when I keep busy, and I do like the outside work, that i feel so useless and don't accomplish anything worthwhile and not like myself inside and out. there is just to much pressure all around that now I am ignoring it and not doing tings I should, pay bills etc...i am spending money I cant afford to spend, not huge amounts but i shouldnt be spending it,. any ideas?
the stupid part is me overdoing it again later.i went in the back anfd hand tlled the back garden, it wasn't tat hard as the soil was wet, but I knew my knee was aching and i was hot. i did stop around 7 and showered. after showering a had a bit of frozen yogurt and made my oblitatory phone calls. my body is not liking me this morning, and the humidity isn't helping. its going to be a long day today at work......
wow, hated that alarm this morning, i was woken during the night with the many thunderstorms and they are still going on.
I wonder why when I keep busy, and I do like the outside work, that i feel so useless and don't accomplish anything worthwhile and not like myself inside and out. there is just to much pressure all around that now I am ignoring it and not doing tings I should, pay bills etc...i am spending money I cant afford to spend, not huge amounts but i shouldnt be spending it,. any ideas?
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LOL That darn Danny.... eats all the rice crisps and now hes a peanut butter addict too hahaha You must find some food he hates and you love! I say that laughing because I have the same problem at my house! GREAT JOB on the chocolate milk.... i went to get some chocolate syrup and some powdered protien its cheap at walmart for large amount and chocolate syrup is cheap so im making my own type of ensure homemade its so much cheaper and calories and nutrition figures out close to same....
Ohhhh My goodness ..... you do the oblitatory phone calls too lol So funny i have a list of those i make too ughhhh i struggle with that because part of me just wants to make the calls just because i want to but i do it because i feel i have to.
As for the worthless feelings.... i do that too ..... when i dont do anything my thoughts are that i am so worthless because i cant get motivated and when i do a bunch of stuff my thoughts are wow i am worthless because i didnt accomplish enough.
The paying of bills..... hmmm thats something that im not so sure why i struggle with that one too............ how it works for me is ..... i put off paying every one of them until the last minute. Now i could understand me doing that if the money wasnt in the checking account but the money is there for house payment electric heat water cable car payments but i still put them all off till the last day i can wait before a late charge is due on them. Grrrrrrr lol So my point is its just how it goes sometimes and you do what you can when you can :)
HugggzZz Hope you have a good day!
it always amazes me how much we are alike.where do you get powered protien mix, and how does it taste? when one feels worthless it brings me down so much and all i wan to do is sleep, then i feel so lazy. today at work i was aching head to toe from all of yesterdays work outside, im tking it easy today. thanks so much for always being here for me.
Feeling lazy? I do that all the time, however, the housework doesn\'t understand, lol. Seriously Ann, I think you do a lot and just maybe you aren\'t as lazy or however you say it. As we get older, we tend to get tired. I know that when I come home I have to go like a bat out of heck, because I am away from home for 4 days at a time. Hugs to you, and you are important on DS.
I get my protein powder from Target. They have 2 pounds for about $15. That lasts about 15 days? I don\'t know for sure. I only use it on days when I\'m low on protein. The key is to make it in the blender with milk. If you use water and mix it normally it comes out lumpy and icky. If you make with milk in the blender it\'s like drinking a milkshake.
lucy, that is what i usually do, on sundays clean like all get out but the nice weather just calls me, then it is a whirlwind. do have to work on feeling better about myself and what i do. larissa, probaly adding chocolate syrp would taste good, but here goes the usual, the extra calorie crap. thanks to all.