Drained.

I don't even know where or how to begin. I'm not sure what I want to chronicle right now, I feel so burnt out and exhausted while experiencing insomnia. I have my own personal thoughts and anxieties but now we've also taken on my husband's sister who's experiencing psychosis. She stopped taking her medication a while back but at least somewhat recognises that she's not doing well. She'll be seeing her mental health case manager on Wednesday... Until then, she's staying with us. Insomnia may be beneficial cause we're splitting shifts for who stays awake all night to try to keep an eye on her. I don't know why I thought writing would help....

I've been thinking of my mom a lot recently, having dreams where she's alive... It's upsetting to wake up from. There's only one person who really gets it but that friendship is complicated.... It's hard to explain being friends with your friend's step dad... We bonded over being upset about our dead mother's, it's something neither of our spouses understands. I just miss her. A lot. I'm feeling really overwhelmed these days.