Don't know how much more I can take

Today is one of those days when I'm so tired of being sad from missing Gene so much that I don't know how much more I can take.  If it weren't for my son, I don't know what I would do.  I've been crying all day today, and now I'm so exhausted I just want to go to sleep to escape the pain.  I still have this huge emptiness inside without Gene by my side.  I feel trapped in this process they call grieving.  Only those who have been through it can understand what I'm going through.  My heart is broken and my spirit is gone.  My soul aches for Gene and I don't know how to turn it all around.