Does she know?
Does Sinza know how so very much her mummy loves her still? I have started praying again..simple basic prayers..before bed..before meals..when i get up in the morning..and at the end of every prayer, I ask God to please tell Sinza, again, how much her mummy loves her. I wish God would give a girl a sign..that she knows.
Lately I have been working a lot on myself, dealing with my feelings, fighting my despair,getting hope again, reconnecting with my faith, keeping my memories of her alive..then i suddenly feel guilty..what about her..my poor baby? She is okay, she is with Jesus, but does she miss her mummy? Is there any one more thing I could do for her?
I hope one day (soon) I can give her a loving step daddy and some baby brothers and sisters..someone else to know about her and remember her birthday with, all of my family has moved on..no one mentions her, not even in passing in a conversation..she wasn't their child, she is mine..and God's. Oh, baby this is so hard, but mummy is doing the best she can. Sinza, mummy loves you so!
Lately I have been working a lot on myself, dealing with my feelings, fighting my despair,getting hope again, reconnecting with my faith, keeping my memories of her alive..then i suddenly feel guilty..what about her..my poor baby? She is okay, she is with Jesus, but does she miss her mummy? Is there any one more thing I could do for her?
I hope one day (soon) I can give her a loving step daddy and some baby brothers and sisters..someone else to know about her and remember her birthday with, all of my family has moved on..no one mentions her, not even in passing in a conversation..she wasn't their child, she is mine..and God's. Oh, baby this is so hard, but mummy is doing the best she can. Sinza, mummy loves you so!
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She knows that you love her. She knows nothing but your and God\'s love for her. I think she is watching over you and wishing there was some way to send her love and comfort to you.