diary

read some of my diary 2002 -2003
maybe i had more to say back then
i typed lots
now i get sick of hearing myself
 
yes things are odd now
and i do have self harm images quite strong
to fight this confusuion
but i am older
and i can cope with suffering
the pointless ness of it all is a big issue  
 
 
 
  

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deleted_user
deleted_user

i always find that when i get sick of
hearing myself, i\'m on the verge
of the depression lifting.

maybe the self harm urge is just a habit?
a left over?

what do you mean by the pointless ness of it?
I imagine you mean that we are so insignificant that the suffering
doesn\'t matter. I kind of like that.
alantm
alantm

we are so insignificant that the suffering
doesn\'t matter....yes you got it ....odd isnt it
deleted_user
deleted_user

so maybe we don\'t have to suffer?
alantm
alantm

thats sort of where the thoughts lead to ..but i also feel nothing of anything