December 22, 2016

Found out Holly died today. She was the 3rd mother figured I've had in my life. (my mom, my best friend's mom, and her) I hope she's at peace now and she will be missed. I feel terrible that my sexual sins and depression and the battles of those that have gotten better the last two weeks...but i feel terrible that my past is keeping me from supporting Ryan and his family during this time. I dont even know if I'm suppose to reach out or if I even could without them getting mad that I'm contacting them. But they are in my thoughts.

Under calories today, and worked out the arms and legs, health is still on the mind