Day 18 Friday

It has now been 18 days without a smoke. 

I feel good today.  I feel like I slept really well and my sleep app confirms with a 54% deep sleep.  I woke not feeling nauseated or depressed.  In fact, I woke up and heard the storm going on outside and realized that I had been having a really good dream.  When I was younger...or pre-meds, not sure which, I used to have really vivid dreams.  These days, I rarely remember my dreams at all and if I do they are pretty vague.

I was with my mom and we were playing with horses in the sunshine.  We were both laughing, the way we often did when we were out with the horses together.  There was a man there too.  He hugged me and kissed the back of my head and I laughed and took his hand.  I could not see his face.  It was such a pleasant, relaxed dream.

The relaxed mood has stayed with me all morning.  The wind is gusting up to like 45 mph and it's been pouring since I got up.  Remi ran outside briefly but when I tried to make her go out before I left she refused to go. There was no way she was going outside in that.  While I was getting ready for work I told her that she was just going to have to suck it up and go out there anyway.  She just stretched out on the bed and looked at me. Yep, I may have to take a long lunch and go home and let her out.

My wish for today is that all my DS friends can feel this kind of peace.