Conflicted

I hate being in one place for too long. I have been in Tucson for 6 years making it the longest I've stayed in the same town. I have been having a huge urge to sell my car, buy a bike and just leave. I can't though because of Jess and Kayla. Jess more so than Kayla because Kayla has a ton of support from her dad and grandparents. Jess has me. She feels alienated from most of the family I think. I don't know what to do because it's obvious my grandparents don't want me around. I mean they actually offered me money to leave. I don't want to stay but I'm afraid of how Jess will react. She could potentially start acting out and who know if or when her depression will emerge. she still has blades and if I left would she start cutting?
I guess I'll stay until my anxiety gets to the point where I can't take it anymore and leave.