communication and desire

I have been coming kind of clear about myself lately.

I've been realizing how some people react to me - and come to me

for something they want emotionally or want my attention and I found

myself cringing away from a couple of folks. Not very good I say especially

as I am a priest and it is my job to serve. But I thought about it - and I also

ask things from my friends and family and community - and so I tried to be

more generous towards those I cringe away from - we all want something

I've heard said - and now I am understanding it for myself and the relationships

around me. I have to be responsible for the people here and so knowing the 'uncomfortable making thing' it's simply

'something they want from me and in life' is something that helps me make the leap into action

and be responsible about them too - along with the others who I see have just as much need

as me or the next guy. Wanting to know 'where you stand' and sort of your footing in a conversation

is also coming clear to me - that I see in some others (including myself.) It's helpful.

Rather than existing in the right - or asserting my own vanity of mind - I'm realizing that for me

my work is about communication....everything I do - the way I meet others on an equal plateau or

where they are or where I am - it's a communication.

From doing my own art, I have realized that to communicate with my viewers, I have to create something

that is accessible in some kind of way - with image or pattern - something tangibly accessible and yet

then I draw them in to the make all of my own personal expressions within the work.

Desire and communication.. not power or vanity - but knowing I am doing both helps me

get on my way.