Christmas Gifts
Hello wonderful peops. I had an incredibly interesting meeting yesterday with the psychic who had offered to share Andy's messages with me. I will say that I start from a place of lifelong skepticism, and so my level of 'convincibility' is pretty low. Even so, I totally enjoyed her kind heartfelt belief that she was able to channel Andy's spirit and offer me his thoughts and wishes and love and gratitude. How could I not? How could I push any of that away? I would be pushing away and rejecting love from Andy which would be obviously insane.
So I just let it flow, and accepted the aspects which to me are a bit flakey as a sweet energy of love in the universe and did marvel at the bits of intelligence that she seemed to have on who he was and what he would bring to such a channelling.
Generally the messages were all good, very loving, happy, and positive. For example: Andy 'says' it is amazing where he is, and that he is in our hearts all the time but that he has also been hiking a lot... went to the Himalayas. LOL!
He also 'said' that he really appreciated that I framed something of his, that he thinks it is beautiful. Well... last week I framed a drawing and collage he did about 10 years ago, along with a photo from the hot air balloon ride that he and Heidi did in May. I would love to believe that the things we are doing to honor our loved ones who've passed, truly do still make them so happy!
He also 'said' that it's all about the experience, not 'stuff', not how many years you live... it's all about how much love and connection you build. He 'said' he was glad that he had lived fearlessly. He 'said' he could see a white light around me, and that no one needed to tell us how directly connected we would always be.
I think that Melissa was very compassionate and very sensitive. I really appreciated her giving me this time. A true gift at a sad and challenging stretch.
I am thinking what I will do is transcribe the whole conversation... it's about 30 minutes long (QUicktime Audio file) but 26 megabytes so too much to attach, right? I could put it on Youtube if I knew how to do that... and can you make those things private? Any advice would be nice. Once I figure it out, I am glad to share the whole thing. It's definitely coming your way.
Merry Christmas, my friends. If you are having a hard day, and really feel terribly alone, in agony of loss over someone you loved with all your heart, I offer you this: your love is a beautiful thing. I am so sorry you and I have had to know such pain. I don't know when you will feel 'better' or if you ever will. I hope you will find ways, as I hope I will, to make a good life and that the terrible pain will be something which we live through and around.
Last night at church I saw a little boy reading the GIft of the Magi, his part, and then returning to the pew and being hugged and kissed by his parents, and I had to struggle to not sob openly. Each child is so precious... and we do not know what the future holds for each. How lovely to feel the sweet innocence of THAT moment, to remember how we have those times in our hearts and minds to keep forever, like treasures in a box.
I think of the void left by Andy's death as a hole around which I and others he loved have gathered. We sing and laugh and weep and feast and say his name. It doesn't fill the void, it honors him. Just following my heart on this journey. And grateful for all the goodness and compassion I have found along the way.
Love, Sarah
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http://www.uuworld.org/spirit/articles/174504.shtml
A great article about how compassion means sharing, not trying to cheer someone up. I tried to paste the whole thing in here but something embedded in the format (EVEN when I tried to completely work it through a doc with plain text, etc... arg!) kept indenting it and making it cut off. So IF you have time and IF you are so inclined, I'd love to know what you think of it. Boy, this paragraph better not be indented or I will have to tell Andy to go back to the Himalayas!!! (JK, Bun-Bun!)
So I just let it flow, and accepted the aspects which to me are a bit flakey as a sweet energy of love in the universe and did marvel at the bits of intelligence that she seemed to have on who he was and what he would bring to such a channelling.
Generally the messages were all good, very loving, happy, and positive. For example: Andy 'says' it is amazing where he is, and that he is in our hearts all the time but that he has also been hiking a lot... went to the Himalayas. LOL!
He also 'said' that he really appreciated that I framed something of his, that he thinks it is beautiful. Well... last week I framed a drawing and collage he did about 10 years ago, along with a photo from the hot air balloon ride that he and Heidi did in May. I would love to believe that the things we are doing to honor our loved ones who've passed, truly do still make them so happy!
He also 'said' that it's all about the experience, not 'stuff', not how many years you live... it's all about how much love and connection you build. He 'said' he was glad that he had lived fearlessly. He 'said' he could see a white light around me, and that no one needed to tell us how directly connected we would always be.
I think that Melissa was very compassionate and very sensitive. I really appreciated her giving me this time. A true gift at a sad and challenging stretch.
I am thinking what I will do is transcribe the whole conversation... it's about 30 minutes long (QUicktime Audio file) but 26 megabytes so too much to attach, right? I could put it on Youtube if I knew how to do that... and can you make those things private? Any advice would be nice. Once I figure it out, I am glad to share the whole thing. It's definitely coming your way.
Merry Christmas, my friends. If you are having a hard day, and really feel terribly alone, in agony of loss over someone you loved with all your heart, I offer you this: your love is a beautiful thing. I am so sorry you and I have had to know such pain. I don't know when you will feel 'better' or if you ever will. I hope you will find ways, as I hope I will, to make a good life and that the terrible pain will be something which we live through and around.
Last night at church I saw a little boy reading the GIft of the Magi, his part, and then returning to the pew and being hugged and kissed by his parents, and I had to struggle to not sob openly. Each child is so precious... and we do not know what the future holds for each. How lovely to feel the sweet innocence of THAT moment, to remember how we have those times in our hearts and minds to keep forever, like treasures in a box.
I think of the void left by Andy's death as a hole around which I and others he loved have gathered. We sing and laugh and weep and feast and say his name. It doesn't fill the void, it honors him. Just following my heart on this journey. And grateful for all the goodness and compassion I have found along the way.
Love, Sarah
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http://www.uuworld.org/spirit/articles/174504.shtml
A great article about how compassion means sharing, not trying to cheer someone up. I tried to paste the whole thing in here but something embedded in the format (EVEN when I tried to completely work it through a doc with plain text, etc... arg!) kept indenting it and making it cut off. So IF you have time and IF you are so inclined, I'd love to know what you think of it. Boy, this paragraph better not be indented or I will have to tell Andy to go back to the Himalayas!!! (JK, Bun-Bun!)
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Thank you for sharing the high points of the medium,, just reading that much I know my Morgan is ok and when I found that penny this morning leaving the pet store, I told my hubby she liked the new fish,, now I know she did. peace, Nora
Wow - I don\'t pretend to understand any of those experiences but I love hearing about them. Personally, I am more skeptical of people who preach a definitive truth with a closed mind because no-one knows for sure about any of it....so why not enjoy and embrace those moments that just maybe give us a glimpse of another dimension that we are not aware of yet. I don\'t know if David really visits - but I love to think he does, anyway....Andy, too, for you! Peace to you ~ Joanna
I feel the love! Outstanding.
Ann
I just read both the \"before\" and \" after\" journals and find them both fascinating. I\'m so happy for you that you were open to this experience and that Andy cooperated with your neighbor. How exhilarating for him to be in the Himalayas! To think that we will all be as free some day... makes me wonder where my Mikey is exploring?
I dealt with that \'mine mine mine \" concept on 1st Angel day. We felt his presence with us all day here in the town where he spent most of his life, yet his dad and sister felt him with them somewhere else, and his best friend talked of Mike being with him that day when he visited Las Vegas... At first I thought \"how can he \'be\' 3 places at once?\" Then it dawned on me a spirit can probably move at the speed of light and just as someone here said--all they have to do is think it and they are there. I imagine Mike spent the day flitting back and forth between three cities, and maybe more we don\'t even know about, looking in on those he loved.
I think your experience sounded very healing. Because of her comment about the framed picture, unless she just took a wild guess, or knows someone who works at the framing store, she sounds legitimate. What a beautiful gift of love to you. I hope to read more about your encounters with her. Love to you, Cherie
The one thing that I\'m learning is that we know practically nothing about the wonders and truths of the universe. We are all on a path of revelation and enlightenment ~ how wonderful that you had this encouraging experience with Melissa ~ being open to accept whatever brings us comfort is definitely the right way to go.
Sending love and big end-of-year hugs ~ Debbie
Thank you for sharing this, Sarah. I, too, am a skeptic. I just cannot fathom how my son could be at peace knowing how much I hurt. And yet, I seem to find \"signs\" in things. I guess this is how it is for those of us who have a foot here on earth and one in another realm. Always the questions, never ending. Hugs, Belinda
I went to the web site with the article about compassion...I loved it. It is so true. People trying to \"cheer\" you up are annoying and people who want you to \"move on\" are unfeeling and people who are angry just hurt you more. It is those who can be in the moment with you and just feel the pain with you who help you the most. I never knew how much silence, someone\'s quiet presence and tight hugs could be so healing until now. Thanks for sharing a beautiful article.