Calm App
i got this app on my phone and it's called Calm. Its free and I use it for my depression, anxiety, and to cope.
You can mediate, practice deep breathing, and have a sleep counter thing too! You can even pick different sounds in nature to listen to as well. My favorite noises/sounds to listen to are Foggy Streams and Woodland Lake.
I am very depressed and want to harm and I can't ever get happy anymore. I try to cope but I can't anymore. I'm lost guys.
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How did you used to harm?
I still harm but I use my razor blade.
First step (this is the uncomfortable one) GET RID OF THEM...I'm sure a plumber would beg to differ, but flush them down the toilet if you have to...just get away from them
I've been harming for so long I can't stop. It's helping me feel numb. I can't get happy anymore so what's the point in life anyways? :(
How long?
3 years. On and off. It started to get really bad again 1 year ago and now I'm just here and I don't want to be.
Look...when I was trying to get off heroin, the first step was to dispose of all my needles...same principle applies here...do you want to stop?
Okay. And I mean I don't really care I harm anymore. I tell my parents that I regret it but in my mind, I don't care I do it. It doesn't bother me anymore. I've stopped harming since Thursday morning because my family found out but I am breaking down and I want to harm all the time and it's the only thing I think about and i just want kill myself! ...but I know I don't have the guts to actually kill myself but I am thinking about it constantly once again
I'm in your same boat, right there with you...I feel my mind slowly slipping away, and at any given point in time, I'm only ever 15 seconds away from swallowing a bottle of sleeping pills...so I get where you're coming from...but we both need to stop, and start thinking rationally
I'm sorry. Yeah we can stop. It's just going to be hard...
I worked in a doctors office for 5 years, and for 5 years I would bring home disposable scalpels (#10 blades) and carve my left leg to shreds...there's some pretty graphic pics on my Tumblr page...and the sad truth of the matter is that it does help the pain, but there are BETTER ways!
Thanks for sharing your story. Are you better at all now? If you want to share. I don't know. And I just don't think that I can get better. I've been trying for 3 years and nothing is working anymore. It works and everything goes away but then it comes back and now it's just worse then ever.
It comes back because we haven't learned any new ways to deal with stress...I really hope no doctor sees this advice, but have you considered taking up smoking? It's a great stress relief...not necessarily a healthy one, but a few rungs up from cutting
I haven't tried smoking because my parents are over protective and hate the idea of it. My dad is a cop and my mom is a nurse. Anyways yes I have thought of it and I really want to do it honestly but I have no idea on how to even get them without parents knowing. Plus I'm not 18 yet so I can't buy them myself. I have thought of going the harder method and trying drugs...but then again if I get caught that wouldn't be good either.
are you on any meds to help you get through this