bottoming out?
Today is the worst of this crash (hopefully). Tried working from home but knocked out for 4 hours after one phone call, so that's not happening. Trying to read up on ME/CFS but my eyes are so tired I'm struggling to keep them open. Not understanding much of the material anyway.
Tried talking to my sis but am too tired for conversation. TV is boring and annoying ("why are female voices so high pitched?"). Can't sleep.
Too tired to sit on my patio and watch the birds go by..tried, sitting upright is too much today.
Listening to music..it usually calms me .. not really working but at least am enjoying it.
So here I am camped out by my favorite window, trying to find something to distract my mind ..its a crazy-making day.
PS : I am grateful that I am blessed with a beautiful home environment .. the house is under construction so far from beautiful .. but I can feel the breeeze coming in off the ocean, the sea is dark today..the nearby lake even darker. But I lie propped up on my little perch and watch the neighbors come in from their day, while I enjoy the breeze...
Tried talking to my sis but am too tired for conversation. TV is boring and annoying ("why are female voices so high pitched?"). Can't sleep.
Too tired to sit on my patio and watch the birds go by..tried, sitting upright is too much today.
Listening to music..it usually calms me .. not really working but at least am enjoying it.
So here I am camped out by my favorite window, trying to find something to distract my mind ..its a crazy-making day.
PS : I am grateful that I am blessed with a beautiful home environment .. the house is under construction so far from beautiful .. but I can feel the breeeze coming in off the ocean, the sea is dark today..the nearby lake even darker. But I lie propped up on my little perch and watch the neighbors come in from their day, while I enjoy the breeze...
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a sea breeze sounds wonderful........a view of water is lovely! glad you are on your perch trying to lean in to it all and find a restful perspective.........glad you so wisely stopped working and doing research for the day. rest is a gift that keeps on giving when the symptoms are ramped up that high Max.......I have certain shows that are familiar and restful to me........they seem to help me slow down, breathe more deeply.........while other things set off the frustration anxiety bandits..........we don\'t like or need those dudes at all......we need to find ways to be still, quiet, slow everything down.........rest easy this week-end, no blame gaming.......do things that ease your mind and help you find a sense of contentment. nite.........ready to conk out for the day. zzzzzzzzzzzzz