Big mistake

I've made the biggest mistake! I didn't go through with the divorce and am now back to square one and going to my first Al-anon meeting tomorrow because I'm married to a mean rude selfish alcoholic. 


I really am very disappointed in myself because I believed all that was told to me and I really love my wife. 


I found out this weekend while in a hotel room over the weekend that I should be loving myself more and asking myself why the hell I put up with the shit that I put up with!! 


October is here, my favorite time of the year and if I'm not excited and totally stoked for all that's to come during this time like I have been my entire life, then something is definitely wrong. 


Im such an idiot!! 


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Ghostdancer
Ghostdancer

You’re such a high energy person for you to be so depressed when yes Halloween is like a carnival no matter what age forget that number and have a ball!!!
sjs777
sjs777

You are in no way an idiot. There's no shame in a setback. It was a decision from the heart which if anything shows your compassion. The challenge is to pick back up and continue the journey forward
seekingstrength
seekingstrength

Thank you. This is so true!!

God give me strength!