Bereavement

I am feeling so lost.  My husband died March 27, 2009, from a massive heart attack.  He was the love of my life and I miss him all the way down to my soul.  I've been crying all the time and have contacted a grief counselor, as I have to return to work  on Monday and I don't know how I'm going to make it through the next minutes, much less the next day.  I want him back.  It isn't fair he was taken from me so suddenly and without warning.  I found a video of him from Christmas and I play it over and over just to see him.  We've been married for 21 years and have a wonderful son, who is helping keep it all together right now.  I just don't know how I'm going to make it without him.