before its gone

there are many many things I don't talk about... just keep it all in but I'm slowly losing my memories so I wanna share this before it's gone

as a teenager I lost my sister to leukemia and with everything Im forgetting... her memories manage to stick with me

I remember the day she collapsed and then found out its leukemia... I remember how strong she was and didn't show her pain... but I remember at nights hearing her talking to my dad and crying... I often cried for her... I made trips to the hospital every chance I had to play checkers with her or whatever

but at night after my sister talked to my dad and cried, she went to sleep... its then I heard the only time my dad cry... she was his kryptonite... 

and now that I have children of my own I understand more why he broke after my sister died and turned into the beast he was...

I just shared this with my family cause I dont want that memory disappearing before they know the truth of what happened behind our doors 

thanks for reading