Back to the grind....

or escaping from it...however you want to look at it.  On the one hand I slept a lot and had no anxiety over this vacation...of course things between he and I are really bad....and I have been thinking of moving out.  again.. I have no idea what I am doing anymore...I try telling myself so what if we are just like roommates...you can live with it...but then I look at the whole blow up over something so stupid last night and I think..why the hell am I dealing with this?  Today is month/year end at work so I will have a very busy day.  My mind is not on it however so good thing I can do most of it in my sleep.  and it is worse than roommates...because roommates are not always this mean about dumb things...I was not kidding when I said if he could not speak to me with love and kindness then just don't speak to me...so instead of engaging in the argument I just walked away and started cleaning up the kitchen.  As my good friend told me last night...we both have a lot of work ahead of us this year...but it will be good work.
Happy new Year everyone.