ate this morning!
it isn't much but I had a fiber one bar on my day off, I have been bringing one to work and having it, I am trying, but still no where near they 500 calorie need. I need to pat myself on the back for what I did, not dwell on what I haven't. how hard, and the dr. willnot be happy if I haven't gained any weight when I see her in early june. she has told me that I should call her if I am having trouble doing it and I ight d it before the trip to Canada, that will be very stressful. just thining about about all the different food that I will have to deal with overwhelms me.
yesterday was pretty good, I would of had overtime, god forbid they pay you overtime, so at the last minute I was told in 1/2 hour I had to leave, so I left work at 11:00. I am frustrated at next weeks schedule, I am beng cut 2 hours, the college kid is coming back to work for the summer, he has a lot of hours and I think the regular employees should get to keep their hours. barb had just told me she was going to try and keep me as close to 35 hours, then this crap, not happy. when I get back the following week from my min vacation and the schedule is the same I am going to say something.
I kept busy in the garden yesterday, I tilled by hand the garden, one of them and it took me over 2 hours and nala got a much needed bath, she smell good! went to see bill, hadn't seen him in 2 days and I know he would be wondering, and yes he thought I was sick. I said family was going on and that i was sorry I hadn't seen him, he cant hear me on the phone, i think it is the cell phone I have. when I got home, felt like I had been lazy, so fertilized the flowers, did dishes and then sat down at 8:30.
today i want to walk nala after this journal, it wont be far, as she doesn't do well, then mow, rake and trim the yard, and do some more tilling, before any rain comes. I have to make yself eat more, somehow!!
yesterday was pretty good, I would of had overtime, god forbid they pay you overtime, so at the last minute I was told in 1/2 hour I had to leave, so I left work at 11:00. I am frustrated at next weeks schedule, I am beng cut 2 hours, the college kid is coming back to work for the summer, he has a lot of hours and I think the regular employees should get to keep their hours. barb had just told me she was going to try and keep me as close to 35 hours, then this crap, not happy. when I get back the following week from my min vacation and the schedule is the same I am going to say something.
I kept busy in the garden yesterday, I tilled by hand the garden, one of them and it took me over 2 hours and nala got a much needed bath, she smell good! went to see bill, hadn't seen him in 2 days and I know he would be wondering, and yes he thought I was sick. I said family was going on and that i was sorry I hadn't seen him, he cant hear me on the phone, i think it is the cell phone I have. when I got home, felt like I had been lazy, so fertilized the flowers, did dishes and then sat down at 8:30.
today i want to walk nala after this journal, it wont be far, as she doesn't do well, then mow, rake and trim the yard, and do some more tilling, before any rain comes. I have to make yself eat more, somehow!!
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Yes, please eat more. It\'s so important! I know it\'s hard, but it\'s for your best. Especially when you are working hard in the garden. Drink lots of water, too. I don\'t want you collapsing in the garden with nobody to help you. That\'s one of the reasons why it\'s so important to eat! *hugs* You know I\'m here for you!
I know its hard to fight all this ED stuff going threw your mind... i got very same thing and seems to be just so strong the last couple weeks.... maybe its the change of season or something but WE CAN DO THIS!!! GOTTA KEEP FIGHTING IT!!! Try the carnation drink or ensure.... or like my therapist told me whole chocolate milk has protien and calories and calcium at least its something.... of course if you are like me its usually easier to drink something than to have high calorie foods. Huggggzzzz
thanks guys, you are great. I am getting to my comments through the basic website, still not getting them in my email. larissa, one thing I do get is plenty of water. I did ok yesterday, had a bit more then 1 protein bar at lunchand had some rice crisps after dinner, junk I know. the chocolate milk sounds good, less filling then the carnation, and drinkijng something is usually easier, yet why wont I have the carnation?