Appropriate day of torture

After all, it is Halloween.  My halloween would not be complete without a good dose of anxiety.  Only it doesn't end when halloween is over.  There is no end. 
As I try to fight back the waves of anxiety I am usually telling myself over and over " I can do this."  This morning I realized I am now telling myself " I have to do this, there is no one else."
There is no one to lean on, no one to call when I am having a bad day.  This is how it will be from now on.  Suck it up and learn to live with it!