Anxiety again- Extra dose
Woke with one hell of an anxiety attack this morning..of course then I kind of feel sick and get myself even more worked up...
I went to Target with the girls last night and I ended up pushing the cart a lot..who touched it before me? and I always think..did I wash my hands after each person's computer I handled?? The air here has been so dry and I wash my hands so much that they are starting to crack and bleed so I have been trying not to wash them quite so often. I was mildly upset last night after the sticker shock I got at the register with the girls...it was a lot more than I had planned on spending. I talked with a friend last night and when I went to sleep I thought I was much better. I did not sleep well however..my heart kept racing and would not slow down and I got up to pee several times...which is not normal.
When I woke and it hit me I thought....I cannot go to the gym..although it might have helped that small bit of doubt as to whether I was sick or not made going seem worse. I took an extra dose of buspar. I was trying to remember the last time it was so bad that I ended up taking an extra dose. I was skimming through my journals trying to figure it out...I wish they had a calendar view of our journals..or maybe I just need to tag it in the subject line so I can find it again.
Surprisingly the BF is being kind and supportive. After an hour dozing in the chair with my cat it seemed to fade...once I start to believe it is just the anxiety and not that I am sick then it gets easier to calm myself down. My heart is skipping a lot this morning still.
It is day 2 of the fog from hell so I better get my butt in gear...today is the white elephant gift exchange...I get to give away our white elephant which I have had all year.
I went to Target with the girls last night and I ended up pushing the cart a lot..who touched it before me? and I always think..did I wash my hands after each person's computer I handled?? The air here has been so dry and I wash my hands so much that they are starting to crack and bleed so I have been trying not to wash them quite so often. I was mildly upset last night after the sticker shock I got at the register with the girls...it was a lot more than I had planned on spending. I talked with a friend last night and when I went to sleep I thought I was much better. I did not sleep well however..my heart kept racing and would not slow down and I got up to pee several times...which is not normal.
When I woke and it hit me I thought....I cannot go to the gym..although it might have helped that small bit of doubt as to whether I was sick or not made going seem worse. I took an extra dose of buspar. I was trying to remember the last time it was so bad that I ended up taking an extra dose. I was skimming through my journals trying to figure it out...I wish they had a calendar view of our journals..or maybe I just need to tag it in the subject line so I can find it again.
Surprisingly the BF is being kind and supportive. After an hour dozing in the chair with my cat it seemed to fade...once I start to believe it is just the anxiety and not that I am sick then it gets easier to calm myself down. My heart is skipping a lot this morning still.
It is day 2 of the fog from hell so I better get my butt in gear...today is the white elephant gift exchange...I get to give away our white elephant which I have had all year.
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What did you eat the night before you had that great day with no anxiety? What did you eat the night before the bad day. Don\'t laugh, but what you eat can point to a feed sensativity that might be behind all the anxiety?
think I may have to start a food diary then..because I do not remember lol
You might benefit from taking a course in Microbiology.
You\'ll find that, if you didn\'t have bacteria, you\'d die.
I\'ve learned, in recent years, that paranoia is usually sourced in the traits that we don\'t like about ourselves, that we put out of our minds, that come back to \"haunt\" us in non-specific ways...hence, anxiety.
The WAY you think governs WHAT you think.