another weird day
I feel off again today. I can feel that I am irrationally angry and irritated by things today. I also keep feeling a little nauseated on and off. While it is true that another round of illness is going around the office I don't really feel like I am sick. It is not to the stage where I can call it anxiety yet but I feel that could change at any moment.
All those times that I wrote in my journal about my boss ..the one eyed nazi. Now she has been gone 6 months and I am not sure if things are better or worse lol.
I don't have anyone on my ass anymore which is nice..but I also don't have any support either. I have come to the conclusion that my new boss is just here to collect a paycheck and to do the minimum amount of work that he can get away with.
Others keep asking me what he does all day and telling me he is not solving their problems. I think he's just surfing the net all day.
Sure, I may work on my homework in my down time but when people need help I drop it...after all ..that is what I am here for.
I asked him for his opinion on something I was working on and basically he gives me such a vague answer that he his no help at all. sometimes I think he doesn't know the answer either and is afraid to tell me and not look like the big man.(although he's a short squiggy kind of dude)
thankfully it is almost time to go to class.
I have also been trying to cut down on my smoking...ugh...can't wait to get to the car and light up LOL. Monday I only had 5 all day. yesterday it was more like 8. Today only two so far but that is about to change. LOL.
Sometimes I just wish I had someone close to me that I could talk to when I have this weirdness going on. Not because I want anyone to fix it. ...I know I am the only one that can do that. Sometimes when I try and talk to my boyfriend about it though I get the feeling he is really sick of it and still doesn't understand at all.
All those times that I wrote in my journal about my boss ..the one eyed nazi. Now she has been gone 6 months and I am not sure if things are better or worse lol.
I don't have anyone on my ass anymore which is nice..but I also don't have any support either. I have come to the conclusion that my new boss is just here to collect a paycheck and to do the minimum amount of work that he can get away with.
Others keep asking me what he does all day and telling me he is not solving their problems. I think he's just surfing the net all day.
Sure, I may work on my homework in my down time but when people need help I drop it...after all ..that is what I am here for.
I asked him for his opinion on something I was working on and basically he gives me such a vague answer that he his no help at all. sometimes I think he doesn't know the answer either and is afraid to tell me and not look like the big man.(although he's a short squiggy kind of dude)
thankfully it is almost time to go to class.
I have also been trying to cut down on my smoking...ugh...can't wait to get to the car and light up LOL. Monday I only had 5 all day. yesterday it was more like 8. Today only two so far but that is about to change. LOL.
Sometimes I just wish I had someone close to me that I could talk to when I have this weirdness going on. Not because I want anyone to fix it. ...I know I am the only one that can do that. Sometimes when I try and talk to my boyfriend about it though I get the feeling he is really sick of it and still doesn't understand at all.
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