Another crisis
Sigh.. I want to quit my job so badly. Alas 4 more yrs before my son leaves high school. .. I have to hang in there.
But i'm exhausted, i'm just coming out of a 3mth crash brought on by job sress and now here comes nother crisis. Another plce where i hve to decide whethr its worth holding on to this job..whther there is enough left in me to even attempt to look elsewhere for employment.
Doesnt help that with cfs my emotions are in overdrive, so i dont know that i'm being very objective riight now. Called in sick yesterday, pain levels up significantly, purely a stress response. Working from ome rest of the week ..hiding out , avoiding people, trying to avoid dealing with the current crisis.
I need peace, i need calm .. Have had enough of crises...
But i'm exhausted, i'm just coming out of a 3mth crash brought on by job sress and now here comes nother crisis. Another plce where i hve to decide whethr its worth holding on to this job..whther there is enough left in me to even attempt to look elsewhere for employment.
Doesnt help that with cfs my emotions are in overdrive, so i dont know that i'm being very objective riight now. Called in sick yesterday, pain levels up significantly, purely a stress response. Working from ome rest of the week ..hiding out , avoiding people, trying to avoid dealing with the current crisis.
I need peace, i need calm .. Have had enough of crises...
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Hey MaxPB I can see you are struggling to maintain it all .So much stress and responsibility and then a cfs body low on fuel making it almost impossible.Is there a realistic possibility of changing to a less pressured job? Some of the stress has to be eliminated so you don\'t burn out totally.Its hard to change things I know and fearful letting go of material securities but the priority has to be survival and that includes our health too.Consider looking for a job with less demands.Consider stretching out the house issues longer perhaps. Look at some ways to eliminate any of your stresses I know its easier said than done, I\'m certainly not so good with that one myself. Changing things is hard but indeed possible a little at a time . Don\'t despair, things can and will change. Love to you Di
would a short sabbatical be an option for you? just a thought, maybe you don\'t need a different job just a much needed break?
i am sorry that u are hvg such a hard time right now...........lay low, rest as much as possible..........sounds like your pain levels are high, which impacts your quality of sleep even more than usual and that takes a hit on your thoughts.........negative thinking invades and then the emotions take a hit.........its\' hard............very freaking hard at times. i don\'t know what options u have available to you........but maybe u need a break and less work stress........sometimes we can and sometimes we feel like we just can\'t.......praying for you.........hugs, soft soft hugs..!
Thanks for the support guys. I wish i could take timeoffbut whats the point, even with 6mths rest i will still be weak, unpredictable and easily stressed.
In another crisis, another key team member has resigned and his badkup is ready to go too. Not my fault, i cant solve the core issue but i cant deliver with all my people gone. Very uncertain about my future on this job but dont feel strong enough to start a new one ..feeling trapped.
Ps no social security and no disability in my neck of the woods, i have to keep working