Another awful day-anxiety

Always with the bad dreams...of which I can't remember a single thing other than they leave me feeling anxious and sick.  I am so tired...he is back to sleeping in the living room again.  He does not comfort me even when he is there.  Some nights when it's really bad it is comforting just to have someone in the room.  I am always so alone...clearly my mother will no longer be there for me.  she only creates the drama.  I emailed my real father and received  no response.  Clearly the novelty of having found me after 30 years has worn off.  I have a lot of homework to catch up on from the week I was gone.  My body aches so badly this morning..it's no wonder I have no peaceful sleep.  My arm is so sore...that flu shot nurse was one brutal bitch.  I let HR know so hopefully we will not have her again next year.  Even my tough guys were complaining.  Off for my half day furlough friday....it is still nice having that extra half day off even if I am usually anxious I am hoping I will become accustomed to it eventually.  It's really the oddest feeling to be so tired and yet unable to rest..