All of the lies

Here are all of the things that I've lied about for attention and sympathy in the most selfish way:

I have lied about:

My grandpa dying

Being abused

Doing heroin

Being a drug dealer

Having friends and boyfriends that don't exist

I made up having a boyfriend, I made up going on tour with a band, I made up going to the Red River Gorge, I made up having a fiance that passed away, I lied about having a house in Kentucky, I lied to my parents about my girlfriend for their approval because I thought that was what they wanted to hear, I lied to my girlfriend about my parents being monsters and my sister being controlling. All for attention, all for attention, all for attention, all for attention and gratitude. i am a chameleon. I make people hear what they want to hear so that I can relate to them. My friends have said that they liked me just the way I was without the mask. Time to take down the mask and be truthful, have to earn my girlfriends' trust back and my best friends' trust back. Help me God please help me. 15 years of lying. I truly am a horrible manipulative person and I want to be honest from now on. It is so hard sometimes I don't even realize when I'm doing it but that is no excuse. I hurt the people that I love for selfish reasons and since i'm too pussy to kill myself I just have to come clean and deal with it.