i quit my job today
 
,ive gone for a job i was offered back in 2009
 
everything is a mess
an emotional mess
it was before but this time i can walk properly
.its 4years ago
 
the band i was in had just ground to halt
in ways ive out grown it
.getting too good to be there
 
also i find myself saying i woulndt have left if we were a couple
in a lot of ways i loved her
she never did love me and never would
she would just point out time to time why i wasnt her type
nothing really to do with why i left but an example
was the last gig where she pointed out a guy and said hes a version of you
and laughed
he wears little jackets like you would wear
but he is more confident ect
 
that night i told her how pretty she looked
 
im a joke to her but i give 100 of myself
.its bad for me to stay there
 
ive done that before and it goes on for years
the crazy thing is she reminds me of a girl i used to love
and she was a bad idea too