should i be typing here
 
update?
im living like ive pushed myself away from the shore
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what triggered a post here
i spelt  9aid   today
.i had to make notes
9 was a p
i also had to fill in a form
and i couldnt spell my name
even though i tell myself
a before e like the alphabet
it still looked wrong and i didnt trust it
.i had to google my name
other stupid hurtful stuff is going on
but im to worn down to type it
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also i  paid to see someone about my spine
it was a special offer
so i will see them ...i have no idea when
life is ....difficult
dreams are worse