should i be typing here
 
update?
im living like ive pushed myself away from the shore
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what triggered a post here
i spelt  9aid   today
.i had to make notes
9 was a p
i also had to fill in a form
and i couldnt spell my name
even though i tell myself
a before e like the alphabet
it still looked wrong and i didnt trust it
.i had to google my name
other stupid hurtful stuff is going on
but im to worn down to type it
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also i  paid to see someone about my spine
it was a special offer
so i will see them ...i have no idea when
life is ....difficult
dreams are worse
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

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deleted_user
deleted_user

life IS difficult. I AGREE.

Do you think it gets easier with age?
alantm
alantm

gets easier with age...i would have said that before 2 years ago when i got really hurt again
it gets easier when it gets easier ,,,,thas how i see it
deleted_user
deleted_user

that sounds much healthier.
deleted_user
deleted_user

Ever considered that you have PTSD?
deleted_user
deleted_user

I ask because the confusion. The 9 as p and such. I get confused at times - just in a different way. Stress on the brain can really impact it.
alantm
alantm

stress can mess me up ....
stopped selling stuff for about 2 months now ...
my creative side is working again ,inventing a few things and fixing up ways to Fix work problems

still havent got round to seeing about my back

last 2 days have been hard work days
but made a lot of progress over the last 2 weeks

i was on a roll till a stressful event tonight
and also church girl sent me an email that i think i will have to
just ignore
deleted_user
deleted_user

stress. so then will this stress pass?